I've been missing in action and I thought I'd carefully share.
First... Happy birthday to my son! He is 15 years old today! He's my miracle, born at 24 weeks gestation weighing only 1 pound and 4 ounces. It seems impossible that he has finished his first year of high school. And to think that he once had a doctor tell me that he was severely mentally impaired and to get over it. I'm glad I refuse to believe everything I hear... even if I can be gullible at times. Despite cerebral palsy and high functioning autism, he is popular where ever he goes. He is truly a blessing to my small family.
Second, I have been struggling with stressed induced illnesses. When this happens, I am often unable to take my many medications, including the ones I take for depression and bipolar.... both of which I refuse to hide. I have learned that although it's a real pain, it also makes me who I am. I can choose for it to hurt me or enlighten me. I go back and forth when un-medicated. When I'm not around, I'm on the down swing and sincerely appreciate the words of encouragement and help that I get from my online friends. You are amazing. I have tears in my eyes as I right this part.
As far as the illnesses, I'm tired and I've been in denial. I have specialists I'm supposed to be seeing and I've refused to call on test results for a possible (benign/not a big deal) brain tumor. I can't eat much. The upside is that I've lost about 45 pounds! :)
Third, this disorder is widely misunderstood and one of the last accepted differences that people hold prejudices against in our society. It has caused me to lose friends, trust and respect. Many famous and successful people have this disorder without the public knowing about it. They suffer in silence and in fear. I refuse to do that. It provides empathy, creativity, and reassurance that I'm not crazy... as odd as that sounds. LOL!
My DH was diagnosed with a disabling genetic disorder a little over a year ago. It effects his cervical spine and will continue to worsen throughout life. But physical therapy is slowing the progress. My son needs radical surgery amongst other medical care as he is reaching puberty. I'm hanging on the edge and my hobbies are my life-line. It is crucial for me to get back in balance. Any prayers are welcome.
I want to thank the people at SCS and Christian Paper Crafts who have faith in me and are supporting me through these tough times: Cindy Coutts and the entire design team at CPC and Denise and the CAS design team at SCS. I presently couldn't get through all of this without you. The community at Stamp TV are a wonderful group of people who are special to me as well. And of course, where would I be without my family, the great people who take care of my son at a special camp 3 days a week, and my psychiatrist/counselor and her assistant. They are the best around.
Anyway, I haven't disappeared completely and I'm gradually enjoying crafting again as I try and "reinvent" myself in the career world... not an easy thing to do in Michigan.
Sorry for unloading. I just thought I should explain. kwim? I sincerely miss the galleries and seeing all the work from talented paper crafters. I miss you!
Hugs, prayers, and happy stamping,
Jen
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